I am a coward when it comes to trying anything new.
It’s not that I have a fear of failure because I’m completely familiar with that feeling! Nor is it the unwillingness to change. It’s more the trepidation that comes with not knowing what to expect.
Back in June, when I was diagnosed with Essential Tremors, I wrote a little (here) about these fears and about attempting to start a bullet journal so there’d be some order and planning to my life. I’d hoped the doodling and writing would help tame the tremors.
Well, I’ve bitten the bullet, to use a terrible pun. Many hours of YouTube videos and much scrolling through Pinterest and Instagram later, I started my journaling journey in July.
Nobody really needs to see my messy monthly layouts, clueless cover pages or the sorry state of my spreads. Don’t get me started on my horrible handwriting – alas, I can’t even blame the tremors for that one – or my clashing colour choices. Some day, when I’m less of a coward, perhaps I’ll share some of these pages. But not today.
Today, I’m writing about my bujo journey because I’ve filled up one Leuchtturm notebook, and it feels good! Also, the tremors have significantly reduced.
There’s nothing like looking back and seeing how you’ve lived your life, how much time was wasted overplanning for things that sorted themselves out, how the weekly shopping could be better consolidated with better planning…
I’m starting my second notebook for November. To mark the occasion, I’m sharing this page, inspired by the talented @spotgirldesigns.
I don’t do her artistry any kind of justice, believe me, but I tell myself I’ve managed an “arty”-looking page, crooked lines, weird spacing and all! So I want to thank her, and every one who has generously shared their journal ideas.
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I’m the same way–“the trepidation that comes with not knowing what to expect.” So totally know where you are.coming from! 😁
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Oh I can understand this. Happy your tremors are better !
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Thank you 🌷
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Your very welcome🙂
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I haven’t been on here for sooo long but decided to check out ‘tremor’ posts cos I have them myself and was delighted to see your name come up.
My tremors are a pain and I set my crafting hobbies to one side for a long time…but I decided screw it and I’ll keep painting (badly) and drawing (even worse) cos it makes me happy!
I really hope you do the same, and kudos btw for sharing your work, I think it’s brill and you got straighter edges than I could have 😂
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Well, hello!! It’s so good to hear from you! Hope you are well, but I am so sorry to hear about your tremors. Are you prescribed any meds to control them? The shaking drove me bonkers – couldn’t thread a needle, spilt drinks… But that’s life and I’m dealing with it. Thank you for the kind words about the bujo. It’s a work in progress but it serves as an outlet too, you know? Take care of yourself 😘
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Yep I’m good thanks, glad to see you still blogging away 😁 shakes drive me mad too but hey ho what can you do? Nah I didn’t get meds yet, still waiting on the neurologist to rule out anything else…staying hopeful…take care of yourself too xx
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